Tô em fériaaaas.... nothing-s-better-than-this...

Hi... there... lots of feelings and introspective moments...

Today I feel I´m so happy... it´s because I spend the night dancing... dancing... all night long... It was such a long time since I last went out to dance. Maybe because I have been under pressure to fight in the market for a new job... and, frankly, this is not easy thing to do... and then I have been styding English, to be able to perform a good job interview...

But today I allowed myself to go out with my friends and colleagues... It was a real good time. House, trance, hip hop... Dancing was something I was missing so much ever since I... don´t even remember when I last had so much fun dancing... the energy was real high!

Then... turning back to the reflections... this week I have had a very embarrassing episode: a friend of mine called me on the phone to invite me for a dinner... Everything was all set for that... then, on the day we´re supposed to meet, I just called him on the mobile. He didn´t answer. I left a message on his voice mail saying: 'hi there... please call me back as soon as you pick up this msg, ´cause I´ll wait for you to dine...'; I mentioned this here because some other time, we set out a dinner, and then he came to the restaurant and said he was going to have only a beer, cause he dined at home... I was starving for hours... just waiting for the dinner... and that made me feel kind of fool... I should have eaten my dinner by myself and not to wait, as the good manners request to do, but...

The worst thing of the episode: after having left the msg on his mobile, I quickly called his office, then his colleague said 'oh, he´s left a long time ago'... ok. Few seconds later, my mobile rings, it´s him... and before I say anything, he says: 'I´m sorry, I´m afraid I have to cancel our dinner ´cause I´m working late... and I don´t know when I´m leaving the office tonight.'

'Are u in the office??' ... HUH???

I have spent some precious moments thinking why he had to lie to me. We´re close friends... really! So if he had some last-minute date with a nice person, I would understand perfectly! I feel so sorry for this... I don´t judge, I don´t blame... I just feel sorry he was not able to trust me and tell me the true reason of the cancellation.

Things like this make me think deeply ´bout friendshipness...

Now I´ll go sleeping... tomorrow... is Sunday and I´ll go back hometown to see dad and mom... and the others too. It´s been a long time since I last met them... maybe... one month? Oh, long time... I hope they understand my reasons... being so busy in tryning to find another job...